I took a little hiatus. It’s hard juggling all the different hats, applying for jobs, and still maintaining personal projects. That isn’t even including time for self-care. But that’s the season of life I’m in, right? At least, that’s what everyone says…
“The days are long, but the years are short.”
“You’ll miss this time.”
“You’ll wish you were back home with your babies and not at work.”
The list goes on. But why am I being made to feel guilty for not wanting motherhood to be my identity? At least, not my entire identity.
I initially set up a reminder on my phone to write the blog post every Saturday, so it would be scheduled to publish the following Monday. Then, it became, “oh, I’ll just write a quick one on Monday.” Well, now it’s Thursday, and I honestly can’t remember if last week I wrote a post or not.
I’m still learning how to balance my time for myself and for my family. I don’t want to give too much or I’ll be empty, but I don’t want to give too little and leave my family high and dry. Is this why so many moms are burnt out? Why we’re just perpetually exhausted? Because we can’t toe the line and just give, give, give? I don’t want to be burnt out. I don’t want to resent my kids. I want to do things for myself and my family. Does that make me selfish?
I guess I struggle differentiating between passion project vs job, then job vs family. Because realistically, being a SAHM is my job. But in my mind, I need to be contributing; especially because I want to get a nanny to watch the kids a couple hours a day so I can work on my passion project. But that’s expensive when the passion project isn’t generating income. So where’s the line? How can I give time to everything? I honestly don’t know, but leave me a comment with a suggestion!